Several years ago, Jesus delivered me from a bunch of fear. All the nasty, horrible kind. The stuff in the shadows and the dark, being afraid of my reputation, of people’s reactions, my past; all the hooks and rights of access the enemy had which allowed fear to maintain control over my actions and my emotions.
Having gotten rid of all the overwhelming fear however, there is another kind of fear which I have to deal with, a sneaky kind, which disguises itself as prudence, love, Righteous living, the Awe of God…
It is the one which seeks to lie alongside things which are right to do and usurp our relationship with Jesus by subtly changing it from a relationship of pure trust, love and freedom, to one in which we are afraid to do something wrong, just in case we ruin things.
It seeks to take our love for All Of God (who is so lovely and beautiful) and cripple us by sneaking into our thoughts that our decisions and actions will halt the course of history, keep us from our blessings, stop God from completing His perfect work in us or leave us in a broken place.
This kind of fear sometimes sounds sensible, because the Narrow Way is a walk that requires us to keep our eyes on Jesus, listening closely to His voice and walking in close communion with Him. It can be a very tight line to walk at times.
There is a significant difference between the path of the Narrow Way and the influence of fear.
Fear will try to convince us we are responsible for things which are God’s job.
It’s God’s job to provide for us. It's His job to provide for all of who we are, financially, physically, emotional healing, fulfilling His promises, everything. Our job is to follow Jesus. (It's a little simply put maybe, but that's what it comes down to...)
If we need to buy new socks because all the ones we own have holes, it’s not going to stop his flow of provision, or be a waste of the money He provides every week/fortnight/month.
…seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33 (NIV)
If He has made a promise, He will fulfill it.
Sometimes when we love Jesus so much, the enemy tries to use our love as a way in.
Fear is a trap.
It is a trap to keep us from moving deeper into our relationship with God and other people. It is a trap to stop us from being fully healed, from exploring and finding the root causes of wounds which then are the key to release our healing, tearing down strongholds and bringing the Peace of Jesus into all of who we are.
If you noticed, the reason it tries to trap us is because it is trying to stop us from noticing the most glorious thing!
Fear is a signpost toward an opportunity!
When we notice these things, we have an opportunity to grasp them and follow the thread of the emotion back to the place where healing and change can happen.
When the enemy shows its hand, Jesus can come in His Glory.
The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favour and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion. Isaiah 61:1-3 (NIV)
Whenever we choose to take notice of these things, and choose to follow through with Jesus to the conclusion of healing and wholeness- no matter how long the journey; we are leaving behind the ‘old man’ and becoming more like Jesus.
The more like Jesus we are, the less this other stuff has space and opportunity to affect us and those around us.
Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:17-18 (NIV)
God knows us.
He knows where we have come from. He knows what we have had to manage in the past, what we have carried, how much we love Him, what we still manage, how much we would love to be able to do, where we would love to get to, who He has made us to be, what He has called us to, what needs to happen to get us there, where healing needs to happen, how to do that, how to provide for today, how to provide for tomorrow, how to manage to do all of it together without dropping any of it.
It is always ok.
The God of All Things is Bigger, and (contrary to theology according to Beyoncé) He rules the world.
God Bless You Very Much